Inevitable Pain

Ok, well this is just weird.

I know there are things I could do to try to speed things up, like walk a bunch, bounce on the exercise ball, etc.

But since I know that doing those things could lead to labor which means major pain... I can't seem to bring myself to do them!

But that's sort of silly, isn't it, because what's the point of trying to put off the inevitable?

I mean, I know eventually, at some point - soon - I'm going to go into labor regardless of whether or not I do these things... So why not just DO them and maybe get this over with sooner??

I don't know, it's just really hard to bring myself to purposely do something that I know will lead to me being in major pain. And to something that I'm terrified of.

It's like, there's something in my head that says, "oh, be careful, move slowly, don't do anything that could cause pain, just rest on the couch"... even though I know that that's completely ridiculous because I can't prevent it, and I certainly can't prevent it forever!

It's a real mind-fuck, this waiting-for-labor-to-start business!